So after a few months of me time, receiving counselling and trying to relax I am now at college. Leaving sixth form was hard but it was defiantly the right thing to do. There were too many memories and although change for anyone is daunting and scary, it was something I needed!
My first day of college as extremely frightening, I was so nervous but I knew I had to do it. Not knowing anyone on top of the risk of having a big panic made me almost run away from the idea. Before I left my house I sat on my bed and did some deep breathing. I closed my eyes and remembered why I was going to college and who I was doing it for, my brother. I needed to be strong. I walked in with my head held high and tried to put on a brave face. I can safely say that after just over a month there I am honestly so happy. I've made some new friends as I've managed to control my nerves in my lessons. I feel that a new start and a new environment with new people was just what I needed. I had the chance to take control of everything and chose to tell people what I wanted to tell them. I am enjoying studying and things are looking really positive.
On top of all the positive stuff, my mum is now pregnant, meaning that I get to be a sister again. Of course nothing can replace my brother but being able to be a sister again is a blessing and just what I need and what my family needs, some good news for once!
I can't believe how good things are going, when you've been so unlucky and been through such an ordeal it's hard to believe that something good is happening.
To people out there who are struggling and feel like there's no way up, when you have hit rock bottom like I felt I had, you can only go up. Sometimes you have to be brave and strong but that doesn't mean you can't have bad days(we all have them). To me it's about what you make of the situation your in and the way that although you feel like your world has fallen apart, it's the little things that matter in life like love and family. You can have all the money and riches in the world but you can't buy those two things. There priceless.
